This dreaded day, also happens to be my favorite holiday. I know exactly what you are thinking… WHY! is this most overrated, dramatic, and stupidly expensive holiday your favorite? Because those three words describe me to a tee. I mean a tee.
But you really want to know why… because I LOVE LOVE. Dugh. But as a single girl it can be hard, but my day wasn't really that bad. Most of the day, I spent day-dreaming and living vicariously through my married, engaged, and in-love counterparts on various social media outlets (social media is the perfect way to live vicariously through someone.
Before you send me a message saying "you fell off the wagon!!!"… (in regards to my 6 months of romantic abstinence) I thought it would only be fair that I not exclude myself from the holiday altogether - but moreover I immerse myself in the holiday and practice self-control and MIND-control.
One thing I really struggle with is being a FRIEND to guys. I am constantly asking myself "is he the one" "could I see myself with him… what about him" "is he cute?" "Oh, I could work with that" DUMB DUMB DUMB!
Recently, I have been noticing that those questions are not what pops to my head. Recently, I haven't cared. Recently, I have just been able to be friends with guys. It's amazing! How after only 50 days (almost) on this "cleanse" I am noticing a change.
So yesterday was a test. I was testing myself to see if I could watch a romantic comedy and not immediately go to my cell and text my sister and bash love or romance or wonder, why isn't that me.
And guess what… I didn't! In fact, I text one of my good friends and discussed the reality of a fairytale love. Most of the Hallmark movies are based around women who are 28 or older. None are 24 and trying to find a career. Most are older, already several years in their career and living alone.
Guess what… that is me in a couple of years. Living alone and working hard in my career.
It WILL happen to me. One day. And I can't wait.
So Valentine's Day was great! I still love love, but am working on waiting. :)
Oh, and no I will not be watching anymore rom coms! I am going back to my Law and Order:SVU and NCIS reruns… but for the time being - I'm watching the OLYMPICS!!!!