Waiting

My children at work make me feel so loved.  Sometimes I swear they can drive a nail in my foot, but when I need it they always come through for me.  Being a girl in a male's world can be difficult at times, and today I have lost my luster.  This usually happens when I get overwhelmed or stressed out, especially when I have a lot of my mind and my kids are the first to notice and call me out for it.  I was so encouraged by their support.  They didn't need to know what was going on or that my day would continue to go down hill - they just wanted to give me a hug and help me feel better.

These words by Bethany Dillon always express so intently my thoughts on days like today:

My heart’s discouraged,
So I come to You expectant. 
You say You’re good to those who wait. 

Lord, today You know what I need to do,
But You can do more in my waiting than in my doing I could do.
So I won’t run anymore.
I’m waiting on You.

I get so caught up in planning for the future and I don't live each day out.  I am so overwhelmed by the next step that I don't get to bask in God's glory and accept that He is in control because I am too busy putting my hands in every pot possible trying to control the next step.  Jesus asks us to wait.  Even in our discouragement and in our expectations - to wait.  Patience is what is cultivated from this four letter word.  And when you have proved patient - Jesus will bless you, but that requires your full attention and complete faith.

A couple of weeks ago the Director of Baylor Businesses Department for Professional Selling came and spoke to Student Athlete Services.  Her message was simple, "God has a job for you.  The right job.  Your job is to knock at all of the doors in front of you and He will open the right one."  What a neat analogy.  

Be encouraged today.  I don't know if this is something you struggle with and I promise I will soon begin to write more up beat posts, but right now, I need to talk through some things.  I am trying to be vulnerable and open because what good are feelings if you bottle them up?